Dear diary

Today was a good day. I reinforced two of my core principles by connecting them, that came as a pleasant surprise and I now feel better about both of them. You know how I don’t do much formal meditation nowadays and while I kind of miss that, I also don’t really, and that’s a strange feeling that keeps on reminding me of the Zen sutras going on about making your entire life a meditation, easting, walking, doing the dishes, all. Otherwise meditation easily becomes yet another, in this case a spiritual, escapism.

And so I was wondering about the difference between our regular and meditative states and about that silence one immerselves one’s self into during the entry stage of meditation. That is often the most beautiful and soothing aspect of the entire trip, sometimes even used exclusively, without going further, for merely residing in this state – whereby ‘merely’ is a deceitful little word here, as it’s most challenging to achieve and maintain this tranquility – is already healing.

So, the absense of thoughts is key to meditation. Once the forceful loudspeakers of our conscious minds are silenced, we can begin listening to all kinds of soft voices from underneath, to voices that are either silenced by the cacophony of the caged apes in our minds or to those suppressed because of their potential to conflict with one or another element – comforting lie – in our world views. And this we do a lot, because the world is a mess, hard to make sense of, and locking ourselves behind trivialising dogmas provides a welcome, if false, relief.

On the flipside though this also means that having an intellect that does not conflict with our subsconsciousness lets those quiet voices emerge all the time and become integral elements of our thinking. And this is the very thing that I do, this is exactly how I live, this is why my number one rule and ambition for life, not lying (to myself), is so powerful, for refusing to accept concepts that I can’t 100% identify with ensures that none of my quiet precious little subconscious ideas gets banned, but all will be nurtured until they can become part of my thought system.

A world view is only worth a penny if fully in harmony with what it’s foundations are.

So this is why not meditating works for me, it’s because I don’t lie to myself.

Love, macrocosmic